Chaos Shiraz

Well it's been a while since I wrote anything. I anticipated this when I first started blogging. It falls in with my extremist nature. All or nothing. Write everyday, or don't write at all. I should probably be out dressed up, and partying for Halloween. But I really just don't care. I dressed up yesterday. And truth be told, I'm just so over going out. Instead, I thought I would sit at home and be depressed about my ex-girlfriend. Why do I still care? I don't know. Maybe I'm retarded (No offense to any mentally challenged people who have stumbled upon my blog). Well, the thought that prompted me to write was when I looked down and realized.... (Yes more ellipses) It's eleven o'clock I'm at home alone drinking a bottle of wine (I have to finish this case of shiraz that I bought because the ex liked it) listening to pearl jam and reading up on Chaos theory. I just couldn't help but laughing. It just struck me as so off the wall. Only the type of thing I would do. I wanted to call someone and tell them. But I realized if I call anyone on the West Coast they are just going to yell at me for avoiding their calls and not going out with them tonight. And if I call anyone on the East coast it's fricking 2:30 am. So I thought I would blog. Blog Blog Blog.

Halloween Resolutions

I know most people make their resolutions at New Years, but I figured why wait. I've had a lot of changes in my life recently that have caused me to evaluate what I want to do. Below is a list of 10 things I would like to accomplish within the next year. Of course, I want to be a better person, keep in better contact with people, be less pessimistic and the like. However, I decided to list more tangible actions that I want to do, and will be able to check off. I'll let you know next year what I accomplished.

1) Work out a minimum of twice a week
2) Take the GMAT
3) Learn to ride a motorcycle
4) Vacation in a foreign country I have never been to
5) Visit friends in San Francisco, Phoenix, D.C., and Ohio
6) Take a piano class
7) Learn to Snow Board
8) Save X amount of dollars (I'll keep X to myself), not including 401k
9) Bleach my teeth (I've always wanted to try this)
10) Read a bare minimum of 25 books

Taco Tuesday

Well I finally made it to a Taco Tuesday. For those of you not familiar, it's simply a happy hour held every Tuesday at a chain of Mexican restaurants here. If you go out on Tuesday it's the place to go. I'm not much of a weekday drinker, and especially not much of a Tuesday drinker. But I was sitting at work yesterday when the phone rang. It was one of my best friends from elementary school who just happened to be in town, and managed to find my number. Another guy we went to elementary school was in town on business for the week, and he had come along with him for a mini vacation. So we went to the infamous Taco Tuesday, and two things struck me while sitting there having a beer and some nachos. The first was there's not that many people here for a taco Tuesday. It was crowded but not overly crowded. The second thing that struck me was why are there nearly one hundred people here drinking on a Tuesday night. Don't these people have jobs? Well it was all around a good time. We had a few laughs, a few drinks, and caught up on things. It's nice to see people that you haven't seen in a while; people who know you from the past. It's a way to gauge where you are, and how far you've come. It’s also always fun to reminisce on the good times you’ve had. One thing I notice is that people from the Midwest are so much more down to earth, and so much more real than people in Southern California. I've always felt this, but being around some Ohio people again just really re-enforced it.

While I was driving

I was driving home from the beach yesterday and took a way I usually don't go. As I was driving I started to notice a bunch of people lined up on the sidewalk for at least a quarter of a mile. They were all holding anti-abortion signs. The vast majority of them simply said, "abortion is murder". Seeing these people brought up a few questions. But, first of all let me state I am 100% pro-choice. I don't think abortion is a good thing. If you’re financially capable of supporting a child, and are in a relationship with someone you really care about I think abortion is wrong. However, if you are not financially capable, or don't care about the person you are with, or don't want to be with that person I think abortion makes sense. Obviously, these people who are having sex and getting pregnant (or getting someone else pregnant) at a time in their life where they cannot deal with the consequences are not acting responsible or in a mature manure. But, this just reinforces my point. Do you really want these people bringing children into the world? I don't. But, let me get back on track. The first thought I thought when I saw these protestors was what the hell are these people doing? I suppose there could have been an abortion clinic where they were standing (as I don't know the area that well). But it wouldn't make sense for them to have been so spread out. So they must have just been out protesting in general. Do they think they changed any ones mind? I mean did someone drive by and see the sign and say, "Sh@t. Abortion is murder. Damn I have to change my whole outlook on life now". I very much doubt it. But, I suppose if you strongly believe that abortion is murder then even if you made someone think about it, or possible changed someone’s mind it would be worth the time and effort you spent. One thing I've noticed about the pro-life crowd is that they are all religious. I'm sure there are some people who aren't. But, I've never met them or heard of them. So my question to them is "where do these 'murdered' babies go"? Obviously, if you are religious they go to heaven. Is this such a bad thing? Eternity in heaven, or a shitty life with parents who don't want you. I could understand the argument if you were an atheist. If you kill this baby that's it. But if you believe in heaven wouldn't this just take away all the child's future suffering? To take it to the extreme, who are these wack jobs that murder abortion doctors. This has always baffled me. They seem to always be total religious zealots. Again, isn't it better for the child to go straight to heaven? And more importantly if these doctors are murderers, won't they be justly punished by your god? Thall shall not judge. That is unless you are a crazy abortion doctor murdering religious zealot, and then it's ok.

After Life Threesome?

I know everyone has his or her different views on religion and the afterlife. But, I do know that many people believe that they will be re-united with their loved ones when they die. The whole tunnel of light and "oh there's Uncle Sam, there's cousin Becky". I also know that in general most people consider marriage "till death do us apart". However, I've been to my fair share of religious weddings where that phrase is never uttered. Instead, there is a lot of talk on being brought together by the lord, and being together forever and ever. This particular blog is not to comment on the validity of any of the above beliefs. However, a certain conflict does come into play when you both believe in marriage for eternity and being re-united with your loved ones after death. What if your spouse dies when you are young? For instance you get married at 21 and your spouse dies when you are 25. Do you ever remarry? Obviously this is a delicate and important question in itself, but it's not what I'm concerned with here. I think that most people do end up getting re-married. After a period of grieving most people eventually find someone else and re marry. My question is when you die, and your new spouse dies, who spends eternity together? It would seem natural that the person you married second would be the person you stayed with. You've been with them longer and more recently. You are a completely different person than you were when your first spouse died. It wouldn't seem fair to say to the person you got remarried to "hey thanks for the last 50 years of marriage but there's this person I knew in my 20's and I'm going to spend the next eon with them". On the other side it wouldn't seem right to just forgot your first spouse. "Hey nice to see you again. Thanks for waiting for me the past 50 years and saving this place in heaven. But I kind of met someone else; I mean it's not my fault you got in that wreck. Oh and those vows I made, uh can we pretend that didn't happen?" Maybe it just depends who dies first. If you die before your second spouse you go with the person waiting. But it could get complicated if your second spouse died first, since they would both be waiting for you. Do they have to fight over you? Maybe you just all get together for a little holy ménage-a-trois.

Missing

Has anyone seen my gym? I think it's missing. Because I sure as heck haven't seen it. But I do still notice a $40 deduction from my checking account every month so it must still be there. I have a gym in my apartment complex that is actually very nice. Free weights, cardio equipment, nautilus the whole kit and kaboodle (yes I did just say kit and kaboodle). So I forced myself to go workout. Let me tell you I didn't think it was possible to be this out of shape. It reminded me of the "got milk" commercial where the neighbors arms rip out when he picks up the wheel barrow. But it did feel good to finally be back in the gym. So this is my public pledge that I will be going back to the gym.

Deborah Norville

I'll admit I haven't watched a lot of news lately. I tend to get my news online. But tonight I was flipping through the channels and came across the Deborah Norville show. How could I have missed this? I mean she is HOT for a mainstream news show host. Ok she is hot in general. It's like watching a mid 90's Meg Ryan do the news. Ok I've had a couple of beers, but I think I've found my new source of news.